This is a super-depressing post so bear with it. We didn't get through to next round of the debates. While a feeling of numbness was there yesterday, this morning it suddenly dawned on me what really happened and I am feeling the full force of it. It is all my fault that we lost. I should have started on Tuesday itself. I should have started them on their speeches earlier. I should have put them on the spot and questioned them until they couldn't take it. I should have listened to them and fired the instructor earlier. I should have read up on the topic more. I should have focussed on the debators themselves instead of trying to make it a worthwhile experience for all. But like in all situations, with the knowledge of hindsight it is always easier to say I should have...... It is easy to say knowing what happened that I should have done this and should have been prepared. But at the point I couldn't have known the competition we had. Oh that the trainer would be like that. Still the event is over with and I can't do anything to change it. I can only learn from it and be pleased that for a team that just started out this year, we have progressed. And next year we will do it again, only better. Thanks for all the hard work guys - I am really happy to have you in my CCA.