Went to cold storage to get some stuff and found my favourite chocolate - tucked away in a corner - Kit Kat (Mint flavour) limited edition - grabbed 2 packs and was estatic. One bite of it and all the worries of the day disappeared. So if you want me to be your good friend - just give Kit Kat(Mint) and I'll be your friend for life. ; p

Yesterday I ran away from school - Er not running away as in scared of something - Just needed some time away as it was home to school and school to home for about 2 weeks - I was getting sick of that. And of students bugging me - I hate it when the students look at us as their slaves and that our life should revolve around them. I mean to some of them we are not humans - we should be in school all the time and when we are not - they ask why? Did you think we dropped from the sky ready to serve you? I am in school from 630 in the morning to about 7 - 8 in the evenings. On the one day I go out to have lunch at 330 ( which means I haven't eaten anything since the morning) I get asked - oh are you leaving school already? Then when having lunch, an sms on if I am in school and if it is possible to collect worksheet earlier. Then when I come back to school - a sigh from a student on why I have been away from school for so long. Hello! I am not your slave - You can wait for your worksheet at the time you were supposed to get it. My life does not revolve around you . Be a little sensitive to others' needs as well. Think before you ask and be more considerate. Its not that I will not help but makes me a bit more willing to.

I also have no patience for students who promise to get things done and then sit on it waiting for instructions at each stage. When you ask why it is not done, "Oh you didn't say......." " I didnt know......." "I thought........."I give responsibility for the task because I trust the person to do it by the time it is supposed to be done. If I need to give instructions for each stage, then I might as well do it myself. I am giving the chance for the students to take ownership for the project - take the initiative, do a bit of research and get it done. I hate it when the answer comes out wishy washy and worse when I have to chase and ask - what happened - Why can't the student come and explain ? Like I don't have a million things to do already!

This morning I received an opportunity, one I had been waiting for a long time but due to circumstances I needed to turn it down. It brought into question what my dreams and priorities were and it seems strange two of my dreams had to contradict each other. I had to choose one at the expense of the other. One is what I want and the other is what my loved ones want - it is heartbreaking but I have to choose not to be selfish. Hopefully the opportunity will present itself another year - if it doesn't, it will be a regret I will carry for the rest of my life. And now I have to lay it to rest and not obsess about it.

Haven't posted in a long time - too many things happening too little time to blog. Most recently prelim exams and its just over. Results are out and disappointing as very few distinctions. My class has some very horrible results overall - the kind that you cannot even get into poly with. So last week I decided to go up to class to give them some comforting words during night study. And what do I see - the boys playing cards - sent one of them home and the rest argued that they were only taking a break - goodness you fail an exam and the same day you start playing cards? I really cannot understand it. Taking things is one thing - but to taken things easy all the time? denial Denial DENIAL. They just don't get it that they don't get good results they can't get anywhere.

But on the bright side some of them have woken up and are doing something about it . Hopefully they dont take too many breaks. How to tell them without boring them that they need to wake up now and really work for something ? That one hour of studying in a day is simply not enough. Oh God wbat are they going to do next year when the results come out? Cry their hearts out? AnD I have to be there to watch it? How to tahan?