There comes a time when you ask yourself if you have outgrown the age to make friends. Why? Well the number of places and situations you meet friends dramatically shrink as you grow older. And it doesnt help when you dont make a great first impression. Right now the only place left for me to make friends is at work as there, people get to know me over a period of time and get used to me.
But the people I have met in the school I work in are exceptional. They accepted me quickly into their fold and really made me feel as if I was part of a group. There is no jealousy or backstabbing and people are accepted as they are. One thing that impressed me early on was the level to which people think of you. One of my colleagues used to say that when they went window shopping they would look at some blouse and say -" Oh this is a Neera blouse - we must tell her we found these. I hadnt even gone shoppping with them that early in our friendship! They had just been very observant. When they went away on long leave, there would be hugs and long speeches asking for forgiveness for bad deeds and ill-thoughts. The latter is probably an Islamic practice but most Indonesians follow it regardless of religion. I think that this practice really keeps friendships alive as people let bygones be bygones.
Recently I met an ex-colleague from Singapore who is now working in this school. In my previous school, he was disliked by a lot of people as he just couldn't stop talking. I was busy with my Sec 4s and didn't bother to reach out to him. He eventually left as he wasnt performing very well and he didnt really have any friends to support him. I expected the same situation to repeat itself here. However the same colleagues who had welcomed me, reached out to him. Now he has friends and is a lot more confident. I saw him in a new light and even felt a little ashamed I didn't reach out to him before. Contrast this with a Singaporean expat teacher who considered him boring and actually goes to his classes and tells the students that he is boring. He gets treated better by the Indonesians than his own countrymen.
Well now I accept people and friends more readily and dont have too many expectations of them. Those that drift away, I let them go. Some come back and some don't. Que sera sera. Those that stay close, remain. And I embrace new friendships for the knowledge and experiences I gain.
Recently I had the chance to experience a blossoming friendhip with one of my colleagues. She doesn't trust a lot of people or open up. She did with me and I appreciated that. At first glance she looks very aloof, but she really isnt. We often meet for coffee and shopping. After I go back to Singapore, I probably will not see her for some time but I think this is one friend I can keep.
I have a mix of people as friends. Some are from university days, some are from my days as a volunteer, some are teachers ( who else could i share the joys and pains of teaching with) and some of my ex-students who have turned into good friends - Strangely they understand me better than some of my so-called good friends. And the search for friends continues......





