This morning I received an opportunity, one I had been waiting for a long time but due to circumstances I needed to turn it down. It brought into question what my dreams and priorities were and it seems strange two of my dreams had to contradict each other. I had to choose one at the expense of the other. One is what I want and the other is what my loved ones want - it is heartbreaking but I have to choose not to be selfish. Hopefully the opportunity will present itself another year - if it doesn't, it will be a regret I will carry for the rest of my life. And now I have to lay it to rest and not obsess about it.